Posted 30 June 2005 - 10:50 AM
Unfortunately, I don't happen to believe much in LTR's anymore. When they work, they sound like something out of a romance novel. At their worst, you find out that it was far easier for the other person to be on their best behavior while you were apart and that they are actually abusive when you have moved to be with them (essentially putting yourself in a position where you have to start over and have given up most of everything that you had to be with them). In some of the support groups that I was with, I saw many of that second variety. This is not a pretty sight.
I noted David's post on the term slowly. This is very correct. But, it is more difficult to move slowly when you have to risk giving up many things in your life that are important to be next to "the one". Then, you are willing to try to force things to work and that is not always the best option.
I also observed many a marriage in service days that ended about the time that the sailor retired. Why? With the serviceman out most of the time, the spouse thought that they "knew" them for all of those years and didn't. When the two actually had to live together, they found themselves incompatible.
The list of women that I have been close to in the romantic sense is without a doubt far shorter than the list of women that I would have liked to be romantically involved with. That is a good thing. My goal is for the next one on that list to be the right one and say that I can still count the number of ex-girlfriends on the fingers of ONE hand. That means waiting and being sure of what I am doing. That means no pressure (which distance brings into play) to make things work. The "biological clock" pressures are dying down. While I would have loved to have had children and am certainly capable of contributing biologically, if I do the arithmetic I am simply to the point of not wanting to be on a pension when the grown child wants money for college. I know too many of my co-workers in that situation already. So, I have given up on that. That leaves me with all of the time in the world to get to know someone if I want a romantic relationship. But, I can't truly get to know that person unless I can spend time with them. I can't spend time with them unless they are relatively close to me.
Oh, and the diving thing.... I know of many cases of avid divers who can no longer dive do to health issues. For those reasons, if the relationship took me somewhere that I couldn't dive and I wanted to be with that woman badly enough, you can bet that I would not care if she was a non-diver. I may not always be able to dive. As the job ads say (paraphased)....
Being a diver is preferred, but not required.
A person should be judged in this life not by the mistakes that they make nor by the number of them. Rather they are to be judged by their recovery from them.