Having spent most of my child-rearing years as a single mom I struggled in many ways. I remember some of the things that I was told made me an undesireable partner for the single men I met. (1st) I didn't start getting child support until my boys were almost grown so my finances were often strained. (2nd) I was raising boys without a father who was present so they didn't really relate well to the few men that dared to enter our lives. (3rd) Not wanting to leave my boys with babysitters made it difficult for one-on-one time with the man in my life - when there was one. (4th) Realizing that those few men were all in some way jealous of my relationship and time spent with my sons - how do you balance that?Where are all the nice guys? Well all I can say is we are out there but when you reach a certian age ane and it differs for every one (over 40 under 50) life become a little more dificult. How do you find a nice single lady who can take care of themselves and allow you to be the person that you are? I am a single dad I have raised my daughter from the age of three and she is currently in college needless to say she and I have a very special relationship and I find that women I meet have a very hard time understanding that I can't and won't give them 100% of me because my daughter will always come first. Now that is not to say that there can't be two ladies in my life but I find that most women around my age are devorced and have kids of thier own and they expect me to accept the fact that they are single moms and have a reponsiblity to thier kids ut wont't accept the same aout me and my kid. Maye I've just met the wrong people but it sure can get frustraiting
My second husband had a 12 year old daughter. If we sat on the sofa together she would squeeze in between us. Not because she wanted to sit between us but because she wanted to be between us. Not wanting to make matters worse, I would often sit in the chair instead of next to him. I just simply refused to participate in her battle. He viewed my actions as losing interest in him.
We had been married 4 years and had never danced together. I expressed my desire to dance with him many times. One night while having friends over for BBQ and a few drinks around the fire, our friend wrapped his arms around his wife and started dancing with her. My husband looked over at me and then turned to his daughter and extended his arms to her - they danced. I was crushed - she was delighted. I had tried so hard to love her and be her friend, but no matter how understanding I tried to be about their relationship I ended up hurt.
So now here I am...boys all raised. Seems like most of the men in the age group I'm interested in have small children, and many of them teenage daughters. I won't lie - I tend to shy away from men with children, especially young adolescent daughters.
Looking back I can say this with all of my heart: Your children will grow up and meet partners of their own and start their own lives putting themselves and their significant others first above all else. Children from broken homes tend to be insecure about their relationships with their parents. They need to know that you will always be there for them. But they also need to know that you deserve love and happiness of a different kind as well.
It can't be one or the other ALWAYS first - it has to be a fair balance between the two that leaves both your child(ren) and your mate feeling happy, fulfilled and secure. If you don't have enough love for both or can't balance the two, then the dating game should wait until you can give your partner the priority that he or she deserves and gives to you.
Edited by Twinklez, 01 January 2007 - 12:51 AM.