For me, the problem seems to be convincing the woman that I'm not the guy that caused you your heartache--stop lumping me in with him.
The question is "Are you the man that can help to heal it?" (and who wants to help)
No matter how much I'd like to say I can fix my broken heart on my own, I know that I need to meet someone I'm willing to place my trust in and that person has to do their part by validating that I've placed my trust in the right heart for a change. For that it takes two, and both have to be willing to risk.
Unfortunately, I disagree on part of this. I feel that if we are dependent on someone else to heal our wounds then we are not yet whole enough for a relationship. Indeed we are a liability.
I have tried to go out of my way in the past to be this person. It didn't work. I am responsible for being a complete person before I enter into a commitment. She is responsible as well for healing her own heartaches.
This is why I said that any future relationship that I enter into will likely take years to form. It will give both of us time to verify that the other is ready without the emotional confusion of a physical relationship. It will allow me to make decisions with a clear mind, not cluttered with the emotional (and physical at that point) neediness involved with a physical relationship.
The best relationships in my mind are formed by two people that can happily stand alone, but choose to stand together.
I do agree that both have to be able to risk. When I was willing to risk, the partner that I chose at the time wasn't and vice versa.
The title of the thread is closer than one might think to fact. Survivors of abusive relationships often need help that they don't think that they need. The same rules that you learn to survive under abuse will hurt you in a healthy relationship.
For instance, don't say anything unsolicited as you may incur the wrath of the SO (or in a child's case the parent). Well, that is a survival trait in that kind of relationship. In a otherwise healthy one, it closes off communication and that WILL doom the relationship.
Another one, shut off your feelings so that your abuser can't hurt them (after all they don't mean it in the morning. We all know that! <sarcasm intended>.). Again, your mate will never know you or your likes/dislikes. But it allows you to survive when being yelled at or hit.
Those that have been through this know the list better than those who don't. The biggest rule that you learn is to NEVER, EVER trust anyone not to try to hurt you.
But, the bottom line is that the survival traits that make you "tough enough" to survive abusive relationships kill off communications and trust while becoming ingrained in one's personality. This is one reason why so many children of abusers/addicts wind up with abusers/addicts. These seem normal to one who grows up in them.
Post Tramautic Stress Sydrome is often not a bad description of people who have been raised in or altered by being in an abusive environment. Some psychologists actually use these words to describe that situation.
I admit to still drawing back when a voice is raised, expecting to get called vile things. Many physical abuse victims will still draw back at first if a hand comes up to caress a cheek (Thank God that I got out before it got that far with the last one). With help, I have improved, but I will always have a touch of those bad habits. It is my responsibility to fight them, not my mate's to keep them in mind all of the time.
Anyways, if you think that you need to heal for whatever reason, don't be afraid to do it however you have to. If it takes help, please get it. Even if it doesn't, it may take a bit more time. It will likely take work on yourself.
It doesn't mean that you are staying out of relationships for good. It means that you making yourself ready for the good, healthy one that you deserve. I feel that much like learning. When we are ready for a relationship, our mate will appear soon thereafter.
A person should be judged in this life not by the mistakes that they make nor by the number of them. Rather they are to be judged by their recovery from them.